Uneasy

Not afraid of the dark, spiders, or zombies. I'm not afraid of getting kidnapped or murdered in my sleep. I'm not afraid of snakes, Sharks, and heights. I'm not afraid of clowns and I'm definitely not afraid of drowning.

It's the easy things that make me uneasy.

I'm afraid of embarrassment, of divorce, and an evil world. I'm afraid of losing one of my children or one of my siblings. I'm afraid I won't be able to provide for my family or that I'll graduate and have nothing to show for it. I'm afraid my life won't be as promising as I picture it. Most of all I'm afraid of being a failure.

The First Time

It was a weekend I'll never forget, too hot to lose memory of. I was in St. George with all of my best friends. We wandered through the town day and night looking for anything that would grab our attention for more than 5 minutes. When the night rolled around we specified our search to females only. What I discovered was far more emotionally effective than anything I could've anticipated. We saw the bright lights flashing just barely off the freeway. I had no previous experience with the corporation leading up to that turning point in my life. It was just a good suggestion by my friend Nick. I had always wondered what was so special about the inside of that building. I had heard magical things but never anything that I could've prepared myself for. Ten minutes later I was sitting there when the number "21," rang out over the intercom. I eagerly walked to the front and received that very substance that changed my life forever. My teeth sank into that In N Out burger, I heard bells, saw stars, and was temporarily KO'd in the very seat I occupied. It was the first time, the first time I felt alive, and every time my teeth meet the perimeter of that burger, it again feels like the first time.

Red Brick Houses

I used to throw bricks on the concrete for fun because it made a loud Noise.
They were the bricks that were left over from the big brick house we bought.
Jahmal thought it was so dope to throw those bricks around.
I miss throwing the bricks around, I wish I never left that house.
I miss playing football with Jahmal, and I miss the bricks that made all the houses in that neihhborhood.
I miss the people there too, because they cared more about the people on the outside of their bricks.

The fastest food

My main girl is In-n-out, but she doesn't know about my side chick. (Chick Fil A)
I'm not very loyal to my main, every once in a while I'll go back to an old girl like Burger King.
Subway is always there for me though. She's more of like a good friend I can talk to about my problems, every once in a while i'll stay and sit down but usually I just grab my sandwich and bounce. I'll go hit up Roxberry, but that's only on a special occasion, usually not weekends. I used to hit up McDonalds a lot but she's kinda ratchet, I can't have that shiz tearing my rep down. Pizza Pie Cafe doesn't taste very good, but she gives me as much as I want so that's not a bad option. JCW's is close to my home (VASA) so I'll go over there sometimes. Sometimes the biggest decider for me is just gas money, or whatever I'm feeling.

Playoffs?

Love is a game.

It's not that serious yet, it's just fun. We're all just messing around in the regular season right now, although some people think they're already in the playoffs.

Some of us don't want the regular season to end, but how are we supposed to win the championship if we never get to the playoffs? Going to playoffs is a matter of choice, it's really not even that competitive. 

Sometimes during the regular season a game can get kinda chippy. It's a love-hate relationship.

You can also play games whenever you want, its kind of like an open schedule. I like to play my games on the weekend, but it just depends what you're into.

There's no standings, no one really keeps track of other people's wins and losses. Some of us don't lose, other's are still looking for that first win. The games can last however long you would like, but most referees require it to be over by midnight.

We all play the game, no matter who you are, and just so you know, like any sport, there's gonna be heartbreakers. So next time  you break your heart, don't hate the playa, hate the game. ;)